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Thoughts for the week: Personal update, projects, and living a life outside the internet world.

Whew! That's a lot in the title itself. I probably could have shortened it, but I felt it necessary to write it all down. This past week has been a whirlwind of events. As previously talked about in another post, I have been picking up extra work due to a drastic change in my personal life. I have been applying for jobs outside the home due to these circumstances with the additional of taking extra freelance work. On top of everything else, I have started my fourth revision process for 'Fragments of the Heart,' as well as start a secret writing project. To add to it, one of my internal hard drives died, dedicating a day to backing up the other drives and troubleshooting while writing throughout that day. I have three internal hard drives; while most of the files are backed up, not everything was. As I was digging through my photos, I realized some of my recent family photos are gone. I'm not sure if they are on my cloud drive, but I'll be checking this weekend. Needless to say, it sucks. But what do I expect when I have a hard drive from 2010? Ugh.

It might sound crazy to you all that I started another 'secret' writing project on top of everything else going on. Writing it in this post does sound pretty nuts. But really, it's been my escape this past week from all the stress. This project technically isn't a secret, but more that I wasn't sure if I was going to reveal it or not. What is the project? I'm writing a fanfiction which falls under Fantasy Romance. I haven't written fanfiction for many years now, the last being Warcraft (Arthas and Jaina specifically.) I really don't like to read fanficiton oddly because I'm really...picky. I love long stories, and typically fanfiction is usually between 5-30k words. To compare to a 'door-stopper' novel, usually those books are 200k+ (for 650 pages or more.) When I feel more comfortable about my fanfiction, I will share what it is exactly, and plan to link the final story to my site (of course for free.)

The last thing I kind of felt the need to share is my whole 'being away from the internet.' The past year, but more so the past four months, I have really taken a huge step back from being online. Of course, I go onto Reddit, Facebook, or Twitter occasionally. But it's nothing like how it was. I try and limit my time, interaction, etc being online. Mentally, I feel that it is the right thing. Though sometimes, I miss the online interaction of my friends, posts, etc. I know that if I'm online more, I'll get 75% less writing done, and my website would hardly get updated. As it is, it's hard to keep up being a mother, a writer, and a creative. There is so much to do in my life and so very little time. Heck, I haven't even made an art video in the past few weeks - something I haven't done in a long time. It's a bit lonely I must admit, but I don't want to get sucked back into 'The Matrix.' I hate how controlled our world is by algorithms, all tailored to each and every person. I despise it. Not saying that everything should be the same - on the contrary there should be much variety. I hate that I log onto the different platforms, and the algorithm decides what I get to see. It pisses me off. Google is like that, their 'top' searches are tailored to you (or sometimes your location.) Everything is looking like a big pile of 'meh,' and I can't stomach it anymore. I've noticed this over the years, and with every year passing, it irritates me more. I just can't find the energy to invest into these platforms that shove me into a box. I am not a label, and cannot fit into a box.

Another final thing is that it saddens me that our society is in social decline in the real world. I can't hardly get anyone on the phone these days, only text. I just want to speak to a human being. Yeah, I have my family to chat with. But I also need the friendship side of things. I hate how frequently friends cancel plans, text instead of phone, and conversations with strangers are non-existent. Again, I don't need to talk to strangers, but sometimes that's how we meet interesting people.

I don't want to end this post being all melancholy, so I will share something cool that happened this week. You know those fun little giveaways people do on social media? Well, I won a giveaway for Colossal Cave. I'll post the goodies once I get them. Just a backstory: The creators of the new Colossal Cave is the same creators of my beloved King's Quest series. Pretty cool. I never win anything ever, so it was pretty exciting for me.

Also, I hope to upload some more photo content this weekend or early next week! Thank you for reading!

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I'm glad to see your doing ok Beth! I'm sorry about the hard drive issue.

Beth Hodgson
Beth Hodgson
Mar 04, 2023
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Thank you so much Knight! Yes, thankfully I didn't lose a huge amount of data. I'm still sorting through some pics. I know I lost some files, but overall it wasn't devastating.

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