Weird title, but it covers what's been happening recently. Since Thanksgiving, I've had terrible tooth pain in my back molar. The jist of it is that my tooth had cracked many years ago in a car accident, then a crown was placed on it. The dentist who did the crown years ago did a terrible job, which resulted in them redoing it three times. Even after the third time it wasn't right. I lived with tooth pain for years, and etc etc. The crown fell off during the pandemic, resulting in my pain disappearing! Fast forward to three weeks ago, my tooth was killing me again. It was extracted, and all week I've been dealing with the pain of the extraction. Because of this, I have been offline mostly, and my writing sessions have been extremely short. Today I felt well enough to take a photo of myself. I kind of liked how my hair style turned out. It was a fast clip, but I liked it. Also, today was the first day my jaw wasn't yellow and swollen.
Another thing I've been meaning to post about is my 'Buche de Noel' cakes. If you aren't familiar with them, it's a French cake meaning 'Christmas Log.' It's a traditional French holiday cake, and I've baked them off and on since 7th grade. Every year since my children were born, I've made it a tradition to make them for our Christmas dinner. I also make them for Holiday parties and at Thanksgiving. Not to toot my own horn, but the allreipes website features my photo as their cover photo for the recipe, as well as my photos are in the top spot when you scroll through! Below are a couple of my Buche de Noels from this year:
I usually do more decorating on the plate, but I was strapped for time. I had a short window to make it because I was making two simultaneously for two of my neighbors. Since I was rushing, they didn't look as pretty as I would have liked. Oh well, I still have one more to make this season to redeem myself.
In preparation for Christmas, I will be offline for at least a few days, possibly more. I'll be with family as well as working on some projects. I do plan on uploading more art, cosplays, and fashion photos starting next week. I apologize in advance for lack of updates on the site; the tooth thing was completely unexpected. Also, after the new year I plan on starting my Skyrim cosplay build (Savior's Hide.) All progress will be posted here on my blog, so stay tuned!
As for other matters, I want to thank each and every one of you who read my blog. I know my site and blog are in its infancy stage, but I appreciate those who have taken the plunge and either subbed to my site, or kept the page bookmarked. It means the world to me. Thank you!
Lastly, I wanted to share a few thoughts because I like to do that. There has been something on my mind recently. Certain situations arose in my life to where I perceived something that just wasn't true. I only saw what I wanted to see. When I woke up and faced reality, it hurt. Badly. This isn't just any one situation, but it's happened many times in my life. It's not healthy to 'fill in the gap' when we don't have the answers. Instead of filling in the gaps, we must seek out the desired information, or completely let it go. I know all of this is pretty vague, but it reflects many situations in one's life.
Anyways, here is a picture I took back in August. I had been sick for awhile (autoimmune stuff) and felt really good that day. I got dressed up and snapped a photo. Really, this style reflects my true character. It's a shame that it wasn't well liked compared to my other photos. In many ways, it was a let down because this photo is me saying, 'Hey, here's a rare instance that you see Beth.' Of course like anyone else, I take selfies. But many times, I don't see 'me' in them. This photo though, I see myself. Actually, many of the photos from that day I saw my true self. As mentioned in a previous post, I had been going through a rough patch of life and felt lost; I had been searching for myself throughout that rough time. This photo along with the others taken that day was a rare glimpse of me feeling...like, well, me!
I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! Cheers!